I want to find the "old me" or maybe not

'me' , 'old me' and 'new me' are sitting around the table of events and each event is broken in many pieces, looks like a puzzle , just impossible to solve
"who did this mess? " -asked 'old me'
"not me "- said 'me'
'yes, yes I did it and I am very sorry and I want you to help me to put all events back in place , I want them like they were before " - 'new me' confessed
"well, first of all you are a f.. lucky fellow and that's because you still remember me, but just tell me what a hell is the difference between you 'new me' and the so called 'me' ? aren't you supposed to be the same entity?" -'old me' asked
"no , no , no I totally refuse to accept this 'new me ' she got totally out of logic and control , confused and she messed up both of us she thought she rules the world " -'me' replied sarcastically
"ok , let me explain myself" -'new me' started,” first I don't know why are you so surprised? the mess I did ? it is my way to leave and I learned it from both of you , and you 'me' at one point in time were in my place , weren't you ? , and I want you to help me to understand myself , I want to be the 'old me', or maybe not ...I don't know , just help me ".
None of them said anything for a while , 'old me' started crying , 'me' turned on her iPod listening something deep :))) I hope , and in the meanwhile 'new me' was sipping from her coffee waiting for some miracle to happen and it happened , 'old me' took 'me's and 'new me's hands and 'me ' reached for 'new me's hand and in the next second every event failed in place and they started to make sense again, and suddenly wasn't any 'old me', 'me' or 'new me' they just merge in what I would call 'myself'. :)))


"Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse"
Coldplay - Lost